I’ve been thinking a lot about music and creativity lately. I’ve been a musician my whole life and I love creating/building new things from nothing, but I don’t feel like I’m doing it enough. Recently I gave myself a very vague goal of just spending a significant portion of my time and energy making music.
I often fret about what kind of music-making I want to be doing. Be it recording covers, producing beats, or writing original music. Honestly I want to be doing all of those things, and it can be very overwhelming. Sometimes I’ll sit at the keyboard and nothing will happen. I listen to music that I’ve made and it sounds nowhere near as good as I want it to sound. I get impatient with myself way sooner than I probably should.
I think a big contributor to these issues is that I’ve been making music in a vacuum. I don’t share what I make, so it’s easy for things to get forgotten or abandoned. After all, no one was going to see it anyways! But I’m starting to realize that making music alone in the echo chamber of my own head is not a very fulfilling or enjoyable endeavor. I’m pretty mean to myself.
So for the purpose of not being stuck in my head anymore, I’m going to start posting things I make to this blog. Just little snippets of music/beats I create, or covers I record with Joanne (my wife). If one day I’m feeling uncharacteristically courageous, I might even post songs I write! And then I’ll shrivel up into a ball and die from shame, but as I understand it, that’s part of the creative process :)